I look around and wonder.
How my mind would feel right now.
How my body would be changed.
How my days would play out.
I look around and wonder.
Why does no one talk about this.
Why does everyone ignore it.
Why does it feel so alone.
I look around and wonder.
How many mama's feel the same.
How many babies are not here.
How many times they are missed.
I look around and wonder.
If I'll ever understand.
If I'll ever be here again.
If I'll ever forget.
Why does no one talk about the babies that they lose.
Why do people think I'm crazy for remembering that my body is no crib just now.
What should I expect this week?
I so understand why so many choose to try having a baby fairly soon.
It would be o so much easier if I had another in utero.
But alas, I don't.
And I wonder.
3 comments:
Thanks for commenting on my blog!! I totally know what you mean about Reece's Rainbow "stalking" you - it totally happened that way for us too!! Adoption, Reece's Rainbow, advocating for kids with special needs....I have a feeling you'll be making an announcement one of these days soon yourself!! :) Fun to "meet" another Oregonian!!
I've seen you comment before and didn't realize we lived so close:) I did go back and edit that photo (thanks for the heads up!) I wasn't even thinking about our address being on it:/ Praying for your heart to heal - I'm so sorry about your loss.
I TOTALLY just put two and two together...and realized who you are! :) SO great to meet you in person last week!! We should get together.....with Patti too one of these days! :)
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